may angels lead you in

Tonite I played soccer with a dog. I think this is one of the most memorable events of my week. It was cool because other people joined in, but this was after they saw that a dog was playing too. That was sort of sad. The dog seemed cool with it though so we played on until the owner came by, thanked me, and walked away. I'm not sure what the thank you was for, but it was appreciated.

I wish I had short term memory loss so that everything around me would be new. Remembering only what occurred in the past few seconds, I would be amazed with my surroundings. Everything would be beautiful. There would be no judging because I would have no memories to compare or contrast appearance to. It would be kind of hard to excel in school; in fact, it would be near impossible. That's the only setback that comes to my mind though. I'm sure people would easily fall in love with someone like this. Who wouldn't like a new friend every few seconds? You could confess everything to him, get advice, and know that your secret is safe because he won't remember.

Dogs can serve as a new friend; however, when you confess to them you don't get much feedback, and often end up looking pretty weird. I think that when people pray, they feel as if they are talking to an invisible dog. We're always listening for a bark when often he's just licking our face.

if you've got an impulse let it out

I always get the feeling from time to time like I've found some wonderful truth, and in this moment a warmth fills my body and I'm at peace. This moment lasts for less than a second and I'm brought back to reality. It's like taking someone on the warm sand and dropping them in the middle of the arctic. The warmth only lasts for so long. I sometimes get this feeling when I'm watching a really thought provoking movie; my mind runs wildly across the screen, and when I leave the theatre I can only keep the comfort momentarily by talking about highlights in the movie. Reading will do it to me too. Basically any idea surrounding life, society, and religion intrigues me beyond belief, and whenever I'm done having a really amazing conversation about any of these topics I come to some revelation which brings about this warmth.

It's really not even these ideas which provoke my mind, but the fact that I am interacting with another, and together we can come to some astonishing truth. People are meant to interact and when we don't we forget how to act around one another. That's why we have mouths and hands and ears. Life is adventure of the mind, body, and spirit. We live it out every day, but usually not to our full potential. The majority of my week is spent thinking about doing something, rather than just doing it. I hold myself back for no reason at all. I've gotten better at doing things impulsively. I don't really believe that we should think about what we are doing before we do it. For me, the more I think about something the more my mind tricks me into not doing it. I would say that about 90% of the time, when I act impulsively it's for the better. I'm not saying that if you consider murdering someone you should go do it, but if some fear of failure and rejection holds your body from acting you should simply let go. It will set you free.

go now you are forgiven

Well I finally managed to do something semi constructive with my life:



At least it's something...more to come.